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Thoughtful Tuesday

The Lord revealed something new to me in this morning's "My Utmost for His Highest":
 
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"In the year that King Uzziah died, I saw also the Lord."Isaiah 6:1
http://www.SearchGodsWord.org/desk/?query=isa+6:1&sr=1

Our soul's history with God is frequently the history of the "passing of the hero." Over and over again God has to remove our friends in order to bring Himself in their place, and that is where we faint and fail and get discouraged. Take it personally: In the year that the one who stood to me for all that God was, died - I gave tip everything? I became ill? I got disheartened? or - I saw the Lord?

My vision of God depends upon the state of my character. Character determines revelation. Before I can say "I saw also the Lord," there must be something corresponding to God in my character. Until I am born again and begin to see the Kingdom of God, I see along the line of my prejudices only; I need the surgical operation of external events and an internal purification.-----

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Oswald Chambers (1874-1917) was a Scottish minister and teacher whose teachings on the life of faith and abandonment to God have endured to this day.

What Chambers mentions above is something that I haven't pondered very deeply but makes sense: change in our lives gets our attention...if we know Christ, change should bring Him into focus, sometimes later than sooner - thus, we should "see the Lord"...if we do not know Christ, change can certainly have one crying out to Him for answers...or continuing one down a path of deeper uncertainty and bitterness.

Perhaps some of what this move for me has been about was bringing Him more into focus. After all, Mississippi was very comfortable - most of our friends and my family are in MS. The timing is certainly comical (and I know God has a sense of humor) with a new job, new house, new baby - new life - all happening at the same time. Literally a new chapter. So, God has some pretty cool things around the corner...or I'm entering the witness protection program! :)

No matter what change is going on in your life, know that there is a reason for it...how you react to the change is in part what defines your character.

As always, more to come...

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